Ghost Season

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CW: emotional abuse, loneliness, depression, self-harm ideation


I'm suffocating.

Great. What now?

The loneliness. It’s crushing me. 

This again?

Yes, this, always this.

I can't hold your hand anymore. I'm tired of this shit.

You can and you will, 'cause you can't go anywhere.

I don't get it. Two days ago you were fine—you were happy, you had friends. Now, all of a sudden, you're suffocating.

I know.

What the fuck happened?

I don't know.


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Hell

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CW: discussion of suicidal ideation, substance abuse, panic/anxiety, chronic illness, self-harm mentions


Dude, wake up. I see it now.

What? Huh?

What I'm feeling. Why I hate life. Why everything is difficult. 

Okay, heavy shit. Lemme just put on my glasses. Here we go. So, had an epiphany?

Nothing like that, just took some time to meditate and really listen.

You. Took time to meditate in the morning. With a day of chores ahead of you? That's...new. 

Well, I had to quit junk food and sugar. 

Uf. That's some hard shit.


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Romancing Mr. Sebastian – Part 1

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CW: sexual content, infidelity, love/sex addiction, emotional abuse, gaslighting, physical domestic violence, chronic illness, medical neglect, suicidal ideation, suicide attempt, hospitalization, substance abuse, manipulation, self-harm behavior, discussion of harmful behavior toward others


They're remaking Wuthering Heights.

Oh!

The director wants to film her teenage girl interpretation of the book.

Oh...

Heathcliff is white.

Oh no...

Yes, the harrowing, complex tale of love, racism, classism, generational trauma... reduced to a whitewashed BDSM romance. Brought to you by a bougie white lady.

Guess that hits close to home, huh?

Why would it?

Because you used to be that girl—romanticizing ruin.

Used to be? That girl still lives inside me. Hungry.


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Midnight Cravings

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CW: self-harm, sexual content, trauma, substance use


Guardian: We’re here to face the truth: our body can’t go on like this. I say we start making changes now. Do you agree?

Sage: I agree.

Trickster: This is stupid.

Boy: I don't want to be here.

Guardian: It’s already too late to ignore this. Our body is breaking down. If we don’t act, we’ll suffer a painful death, and soon. Do you understand that?


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Mauled by cats

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CW: Strong language, emotional distress, chronic illness, bodily autonomy


What a moron you are! The instructions clearly say: take one antibiotic every 12 hours. How did you read it as one per day?

I don’t know! I’m tired. I got mauled by two cats. I slept like shit. I got a tetanus and rabies shot. I’m sore, chilly, and feverish. My period is tormenting me. And I feel very vulnerable and alone.

Excuses. Always excuses with you. I’m so tired of having to clean up after you. I’m convinced you’d die if I weren’t here.


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